Where are my career path GPS coordinates, dadgummit?!

Trying to Cure the Nagging Malaise or How the “How To” Books Didn’t Help!

I started out my career transition search last summer going down the ‘traditional’ path, looking for a corporate job of senior investigator/compliance professional and was dutifully networking with smart, successful professionals along that path.  After all, it made the most sense given my background.

Come August, however, I realized that as I pursued the ‘traditional’ path, my soul had stayed home … tucked in a corner of my clothes closet, near some smelly old shoes, stultified and out of sorts with my ‘sensible’ plan.  My soul was not in the search.  Exactly what then was I seeking?

I knew only that I wanted to try to leave some small legacy — to leave the world in a slightly better state than I found it in this next stage of my career.  But how exactly?  Doing what?

Many of us have or have had that nagging sense of dissatisfaction with what we’re doing.  A certain ennui that pervades every day endeavors.  It’s like a mild headache, lurking in the background, threatening to become a pounder of pain.  Or it may manifest as a sense of something lacking from life — like going outside and realizing you’ve forgotten a hat on a frigid morning.

It was certainly that way with me, and so I turned, as I often do, to books.  I checked out a half a dozen books from my local library, seeking to find the answer, the cure to my career malaise, the GPS coordinates for where the heck is that road not yet taken that my soul yearns for but my mind is helpless to find. Library stock image

Some books were topical ones on careers that “made sense” as sequels to what I’ve been doing.  Nothing resonated much.

Other books were the ‘how to’ type of guides.  In another era, What Color is My Parachute would have been in the mix.  More than one volume held a slimmed down version of the incomprehensible Myers Briggs test — according to which, improbably, I could have a satisfying career as a bus driver.  Somehow, I don’t think so!

All my ‘how to’ guides had countless questions, like what are your ‘drivers,’ to help you figure out … supposedly … the essence of you and therefore, magically, the next career move that will fit like a glove.  Only somehow I just wound up with long lists of exercises dutifully completed, yet nary a clue as to what career path they led to.

So, clueless and frustrated, I returned my overdue stash of self-help books to the library.library books open

Soul Searching and the Bookshelves’ Testimony                                                         

My soul searching culminated in a contemplative look at my bookshelves.  Contemplation of the bookshelf and the transitory nature of life, especially at this ‘certain age,’ as the French delicately put it, prompted me to set off on a very different career trajectory than the one I debuted with this summer.

Bookshelves don’t dissemble.  Mine (all ten of them) testify to interests of the heart — the books which remain on the shelves after the passage of time.  Interests outgrown over the years have long since been relegated to the used book depository at the library.  Here’s what I found when I contemplated my bookshelf.

My lifelong love of travel and decades long interest in Africa, elephants, and preserving this amazing species dominate my collection.  Iain and Oria Douglas-Hamilton’s Among the Elephants cozies up to a stunning color plate edition of Isak Dinesen’s Out of Africa.  Laurens van der Post’s Walk with a White Bushman elbows C.G. Jung’s Memories, Dreams & Reflections, while Beryl Markham’s West with the Night reminds me that I have yet to learn to fly.  Cynthia Moss’s Elephant Memories speaks to this magnificent animal’s displays of grief, compassion, and playfulness.  And a call closer to home, the Letters of E.B. White bracket the Africa collection, a steady reminder that the powerfully well-put word can change the course of history in small and large corners of the world.

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As of this writing, more than 30,000 elephants are killed by poachers every year — one every 15 minutes.  The number of Asian elephants today is a scant 50,000.  The African elephant population has dropped from 1.3 million in the 1980’s to 419,000 today.  They are slaughtered by poachers herding them by helicopter, toting automatic weapons.  Two species of rhinos are already extinct with two more alive only in captivity.  Other species are threatened daily, as are the anti-poaching units who protect them.  And the fruits of the poachers’ blood sport provide the fourth largest funding of international terrorism, after drug running, gun smuggling, and human trafficking.  Now, there’s a compliance issue that grabs my heart and soul.

Happily, as I explore this new and seemingly improbable career path, I find that my skills are abundantly transferable.  In fact, it’s such an obvious next step I wonder why I didn’t see it ages ago.  So, I have finally found my path, but Lordy was the process a painful one.

In making my own way, I realize that pondering one’s bookshelves may not be the trigger that works for all of us when chewing on the intractable and supremely important question:  where next can I apply the handiwork of God-given talents I have been blessed with?

And so, I have been posing this question to my network of fellow Colgate sojourners, and their wisdom will be the subject of my next blog … for those of you whose bookshelves don’t testify as loudly and clearly as mine did.  Rest easy, our transition network has sound advice for those of you still seeking your next path.  We can perhaps help you find your own soul-inspired way to leave a legacy for those we love and ultimately leave behind.  A way to leave our planet a better, prettier place.  A fairer Chenango Valley, if you will.

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Harebrained schemes I have had … and thrived!

This is … there is no doubt about it … one of my more harebrained schemes.  Lunching on the back deck after searching LinkedIn Groups for wildlife conservation groups, and finding but a few, kind of brought it home to me.   Leaving a career predicated on the lawyerly skills I earned over the years, and deciding instead to land a job in wildlife conservation — preferably involving elephants — is a downright wacky idea.  After all, there are no elephants in my little corner of Pennsylvania.

Then, however, I recalled other harebrained schemes I have hatched, pursued, and oddly enough, survived.  Even succeeded at.  I credit Colgate University and the old Jan Plan program for this propensity to succeed at harebrained schemes.

Back in the day, as all my old fart classmates will recall, you could come up with an independent study project, find a professor as wacky as you were to sponsor it, and then spend the month of January accomplishing the project for course credit before resuming the more traditional spring semester of coursework come frigid-in-Hamilton, NY- February.

One of my Jan Plans, for instance, involved writing a paper in French about how the Paris subway system was constructed, with a special focus on the tunnels underneath the Seine as this was, if my memory serves, a construction first for a subway system — underwater tunneling.  Granted, this Jan Plan gave me an excuse to return to Paris for the month of January where my Lebanese boyfriend awaited, but I did read lots and lots about la construction du metro Parisien while haunting the Hotel de Sens in the fourth arrondisement, and got credit for the paper I wrote on the topic.

Another, perhaps more useful Jan Plan, involved getting approval to translate Albert Camus’  20th century masterpiece, L’Etranger, into English as the then-existing translation was piss poor, and mangled just about every bit of Camusian symbolism that the unsuspecting Albert had worked into the original.  It was a really bad translation.  The then head of the Romance Languages department, Elwyn Sterling, agreed with me on that and the need for a better one.

Interestingly, Prof. Sterling never raised an eyebrow, or indeed expressed le moindre scepticisme, about the fact that I intended to translate an entire novel in four short weeks.  By week 3, I was roughly at page 9 out of 85 fine-print pages in the Gallimard edition.  Trust me on this:  translating a major work of French literature is just not as simple as ordering a wedge of drooling Camembert from your local fromager!

I returned during week 3, hat in hand, to give him an update.  “Love the project,” I declared enthusiastically.  “I’m really learning so much.  And I really want to continue it,” I said.  But, I sheepishly informed him, I was not as far along as I had hoped, and would not be able to complete it during the Jan Plan month-long semester.

No worries, was his ready reply.  (And, again, he had the grace to act not the least surprised that the project was taking longer than my absurdly naïve initial estimate.)  “Take the spring semester as well, and knock it out by the time you graduate in May, and I’ll arrange for January and spring semester credits.”  And so it was done.  And by May, I was done.  I had translated L’Etranger into a more respectable English language version of The Stranger.  Someday, I should self-publish the darned thing because it was a heck of a lot of work!

Some other harebrained schemes that worked out well that I recalled over lunch include the following:

Pursuing a civil rights case that everyone declared a dead, bang loser, and creating the hostile work environment sexual harassment cause of action for my client Cathy Broderick and other women and men in the workforce.  (That baby got international press coverage — my 15 minutes of fame — which was tarnished only by the fact that I had to hide softshell crab schmutz beneath a borrowed jacket when interviewed by the Today Show because the crab gunk had squirted onto my chest over lunch.)

Deciding at age 17 to spend a year abroad before college.  It was the only thing my Mom ever forbade me to do.  She thought I was too young.  Colgate thought it was a grand idea and told me to take two years if I wanted to, my admissions place was secure.  After heavily lobbying all my Mom’s friends, who also thought it a grand idea since it did not involve their teenaged daughter, I spent the most fun year of my life in the City of Lights.  (That’s when I started to wonder, while of course riding the metro, how on earth does one put a subway tunnel under the Seine after all?!)

Swimming upstream in the Okavango Delta in Botswana after a long, hot day traveling in a dug out tree trunk — preferred travel mode in those parts.  Our very pissed off guide informed me that the place was teeming with crocodiles, and was not amused when I asked, why then had he said we could swim.  (He meant rinse off in the puddle close to shore.)   Even the local villagers tried to warn me, but the confusion on my part was understandable since I didn’t speak Tswana.  Thus, when villagers along the shore smiled broadly, waved, and shouted “kwena,” as I swam upstream, I smiled and waved back between breast strokes, calling out, “Yes, it’s a beautiful river.”  Kwena, as you have wisely deduced, is actually Tswana for croc not river!

Okay, granted that scheme was stupid, but I did survive to tell the tale.  Indeed, I thrived.

So, now you can understand how the most harebrained schemes are hatched, pursued, and how they succeed.  It’s a Colgate thing.  It came with our meal plan and Jan Plan, all neatly included in the fee for tuition.    No matter how harebrained your scheme, if you had the confidence to try it, the professors backed you up wholeheartedly as you inched your way towards a successful outcome.

And that, gentle reader, is how a former civil rights lawyer/investigator hatched her plan to pursue her heart rather than her head in seeking out a career path in animal conservation.  Yep, preferably involving elephants despite a marked shortage of that noble beast here in my backyard in PA.  And I’ve insured my ultimate success by reaching out to Colgate’s Career Center who is enthusiastically backing my plan.  So, I’m bound to succeed.  And thrive.  That’s the Colgate way.

Come along for the ride!   Hold my hand!  Send words of encouragement my way!  I’m going to need it for this may be my most harebrained scheme yet!  And doesn’t it sound like fun?  Go Gate!

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Elephant with baby calf